I had an interview with myself today. Odd. I'm going to share it because, from what I know, interviews are for another person to get to know somebody else. So now you can get to know me.
What is your full name?
A: Lindsey Elizabeth Pfau
What is your favorite thing to eat?
A: Ice cream. And chocolate. Preferably chocolate ice cream.
Describe that taste of your favorite food without comparing it to other foods.
A: Sweet and creamy, but not too thick because it melts in your mouth. But its still cool and its refreshing too.
What are your favorite things to do?
A: Exercise and run. Read on the beach. Take a hike or nature walk. Do flips. Go to dance parties. Bask in the sun. Sing along to the radio alone in my car. Write in my journal. Go to cute little coffee shops and cafes. Read a good book. Play in the ocean.
Who are your favorite people?
A: Mom, dad, Jodie, Kristen, Mikey. My family :)
What was your favorite thing to do when you were really little?
A: I have trouble remembering my childhood, for no particular reason. Nothing tragic happened, I just don't remember much. But I'm sure I liked a lot of things...I definitely know that my neighbor Katherine and I used to LOVE pretending to play "town" for years. Like, between the ages of 4 and 14. Our bikes and scooters were our cars; one particular tree was the bank and the green leaves were money; her mailbox was McDonald's. Sometimes we drew roads with chalk on our driveways and sometimes we put things like pretzels in our teeth to pretend they were braces because we wanted to be teenagers. So my childhood was spent pretending I was older I guess. Hmmm...
Describe your favorite outfit.
A: Well are we going off comfort or style? Personally, if you feel pretty, you are pretty. So my favorite outfit is definitely with my off white flowy hippie skirt and a green tank top. Beaded necklaces. Some sort of sash around my waist. Either sandals or my new tan boots that I just bought. I love my hippie skirt. But I'm also an athlete and wear sweats a lot and I gotta say, nothing can beat the comfort of sweats...Boyden sweatpants have got to be an honorary mention.
Welp, thats me in a nutshell! Take it or leave it! Love me or hate me! Please, no more questions, please.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
These are some of my favorite sayings ... use them as you wish.
I've been having more than a few bad days in a row. ("But its Christmas time, why?") I don't know why. Sometimes people just have a bad day. Or two. Or thirty. The things I normally do to make myself feel better ... well, I just haven't felt like doing them. In the fall I often used This is NOT a Book to get me to do something and raise my mood,. And even though I haven't felt like doing that either lately, this morning I decided to suck it up and just try. In attempts to do something I would actually follow through with, I was selective; I didn't pick a difficult page because I didn't want to get discouraged and give up on it. Page 110 was an excerpt from another book. I grabbed the book I'm currently reading (which I haven't read in over a week because I haven't felt like reading...) and opened to a random page, closed my eyes, and picked a sentence.
"We sat down behind a table and I was suddenly aware I could not take off my suit jacket because, particularly after my sprint through downtown traffic, my starched white shirt was now soaked through with sweat." --- Love in the Driest Season by Neely Tucker.
That wasn't so difficult.
It means nothing to me. I haven't gotten to that point in the book yet so I have no idea what it means. But it did spark an interest in me to write down some of my other favorite quotes or excerpts or lyrics. One of my best friends, Anna, ALWAYS writes down quotes when shes feeling down. Every time without fail her room is covered with little post-its and notes of quotes that make her feel better. Well this morning, that is my therapy as well. Here are some of my favorite sayings, quotes and excerpts ...for feeling good, for faith, for motivation, for realization...For good or for bad. They're only a few compared to the thousands of good and meaningful quotes I've heard in my life thus far. And they're not connected in any way. Their only common theme is: I like them; and I thought of them this morning.
"We sat down behind a table and I was suddenly aware I could not take off my suit jacket because, particularly after my sprint through downtown traffic, my starched white shirt was now soaked through with sweat." --- Love in the Driest Season by Neely Tucker.
That wasn't so difficult.
It means nothing to me. I haven't gotten to that point in the book yet so I have no idea what it means. But it did spark an interest in me to write down some of my other favorite quotes or excerpts or lyrics. One of my best friends, Anna, ALWAYS writes down quotes when shes feeling down. Every time without fail her room is covered with little post-its and notes of quotes that make her feel better. Well this morning, that is my therapy as well. Here are some of my favorite sayings, quotes and excerpts ...for feeling good, for faith, for motivation, for realization...For good or for bad. They're only a few compared to the thousands of good and meaningful quotes I've heard in my life thus far. And they're not connected in any way. Their only common theme is: I like them; and I thought of them this morning.
Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up, it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again,but life goes on.
Life passes most people by while they're making grand plans for it.
--Blow (the movie)
May the road rise up to meet you.
May the wind always be at your back.
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
and rains fall soft upon your fields.
And until we meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of His hand
-- Irish Blessing
… I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded, not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering it things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night.
It’s wrong what they say about the past, I’ve learned, about how you can bury it. Because the past claws its way out.
When spring comes it melts the snow one flake at a time.
-- The Kite Runner
We knowers are unknown to ourselves, and for a good reason: How can we ever find what we have never looked for?
We have to do things to survive: find food, shelter, and so on. We do all this without thinking: We only need to think, in fact, when some problem arises. It's like driving: you just do it automatically, and it's only when you notice you're about to crash that you have to start paying attention.
-- Heidegger (philosopher)
Her True Greatness will not lie in her actions, which will be judged by the social realm; it will lie in the extent to which she has struggled in private. Has kept her faith within herself.
-- Kierkegaard (philosopher. This is the quote from the book "A Modern Girl's Guide to European Philosophy that I blogged about a month or so ago...)
To live would be an awfully great adventure.
-- Peter Pan of Neverland
People who need people are the luckiest people in the world.
-- Barbara Streisand song "People"
There is always a valley before a hill
-- anonymous
Any man who knows a thing knows he knows not a damn damn thing at all
And every time I feel the hurt I feel the giving getting me up off the wall.
-- K'naan song "Take a Minute"
And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round
-- Do you realize by the Flamming Lips
I believe in the sand beneath my toes.The beach gives a feeling,
An earthy feeling. I believe in the faith that grows.
-- Third Eye Blind Semi Charmed Life
Most of the battles of life are won by looking beyond the clouds to the sun. And having the patience to wait for the day until the sun comes out and the clouds float away.
-- Precious Moments of Inspiration
The world is smaller than you think, and the people on it are more beautiful than you think.
-- Bertram van Munster
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
This is what I do at home
First off, with the time I've had being at home I tried to update my blog just a bit. I've been looking at other blogs and trying to update myself with the blogging world.I've noticed that mine is definitely lacking in "coolness." Lots of blogs have cool features and applications, videos, colors, games and whatnot. So I tried to update mine ... but Im starting small. (I mean, it was just about 3 days ago that I realized that my blog has a spell check on it. All this time life could have been so much easier and I just never knew). So I figured out spell check and a couple of other new features that you should take a look at. For example, I know lots of people don't write comments because they don't have an account (which is super easy and free to make btw). But now at the end of each post, you have the option of clicking and voting for if you think the post was funny, interesting, or thought-provoking! And if you would like to share my blog with your friends (please do please do!) then on the right sidebar ---------------> you can choose to share via facebook or twitter! And finally if there is a topic you remember me talking about and want to look it up again but don't know where to find it, or something like that, then I added a "Search" feature on the right sidebar that searches through my entire blog! Check it out guys =) Pretty soon I'll be a blogger expert.
So for any other college students, or maybe just people that live away from home ... do you also find yourself sitting on your bedroom floor looking through old knickknacks, papers, pictures, and suddenly 2 or 3 hours pass by?
Well, I do.
Every time I go home. I find myself looking through the same stuff too. Its such a waste of time, but its just what I do when I go home I guess.
So I was looking through some old stuff and I came across a book full of stickers I used to collect. Stickers are so cute, but there are very few purposes for them. Every time I write a letter, which is about 3 times a year I put silly stickers on them or the envelope just because its fun. Andddddddd, really that's about the only purpose for them. What do you use stickers for when your 20? Someone tell me. Because I have a ton of cute ones and no use for them except to waste 3 hours every time I go home sitting on my floor saying "I remember when I got these stickers. I love them."
Well fortunately this time around I found a use for some of them. Page 89 and 90 was oddly a "Habitat for Microorganisms." So I had to create a home for them. All I could picture in my head was an ant farm. So with my stickers I made a little mini farm for my microorganisms. Farmhouse, barn, windmill, flower garden, and vegetable garden, train and some toys to play with, mini basketball, football, beach ball, teddy bear, and wagon. This way here, my mini microorganisms have all the appropriate mini things they need for living: a place to live for safety, food for living, flowers for mental health, and toys so they keep active and happy. Oh and a form of transportation in case they want to go visit other microorganism friends on the other side of the farm.
Yaa ... This is what I do when Im home ...
So for any other college students, or maybe just people that live away from home ... do you also find yourself sitting on your bedroom floor looking through old knickknacks, papers, pictures, and suddenly 2 or 3 hours pass by?
Well, I do.
Every time I go home. I find myself looking through the same stuff too. Its such a waste of time, but its just what I do when I go home I guess.
So I was looking through some old stuff and I came across a book full of stickers I used to collect. Stickers are so cute, but there are very few purposes for them. Every time I write a letter, which is about 3 times a year I put silly stickers on them or the envelope just because its fun. Andddddddd, really that's about the only purpose for them. What do you use stickers for when your 20? Someone tell me. Because I have a ton of cute ones and no use for them except to waste 3 hours every time I go home sitting on my floor saying "I remember when I got these stickers. I love them."
Well fortunately this time around I found a use for some of them. Page 89 and 90 was oddly a "Habitat for Microorganisms." So I had to create a home for them. All I could picture in my head was an ant farm. So with my stickers I made a little mini farm for my microorganisms. Farmhouse, barn, windmill, flower garden, and vegetable garden, train and some toys to play with, mini basketball, football, beach ball, teddy bear, and wagon. This way here, my mini microorganisms have all the appropriate mini things they need for living: a place to live for safety, food for living, flowers for mental health, and toys so they keep active and happy. Oh and a form of transportation in case they want to go visit other microorganism friends on the other side of the farm.
Yaa ... This is what I do when Im home ...
Monday, December 21, 2009
This is another reason not to get old ...
Its Christmas break and what do I do? Research.
I'm a nerd.
Page 76: This is a Research Project. Find an encyclopedia, open to a random page, close your eyes and point, write down the subject you have chosen, research it and become an expert.
So for any of you who are interested in learning a little fun fact:
Lymphosarcomatosis (Obvious it’s not an easy one. 2 inches up the page was Lymph Nodes, but no, words I can hardly pronounce are way more fun to research).
Lymphosarcomatosis --> a condition characterized by the presence of multiple lesions of lymposarcoma.
Let’s break it down:
Lymph: the interstitial fluid in between cells of human body
Sarcoma: cancer of connective tissue
Suffix “osis”: normally means a disease or chronic condition.
So I’m concluding that lymphosarcomatosis is a disease in which one has cancer in the interstitial fluid of the cells in their connective tissue. But since I must become an EXPERT, I’ll back track and try to find more info….
Lymposarcoma is a diseased (malignant) lymphoid tissue. Lymphoid tissues are located all around the body; in bone marrow, surrounding arteries, between membranes lining the large and small intestines and respiratory system. Basically these tissues hold cells in them that support a lot of different functions; mainly white blood cells that support the immune response system. There are macrophages and lymphocytes that eliminate dangerous invaders and kick start the body’s response system to protect against invaders. When I say invader I mean any sort of harmful cell or pathogen that has entered the body, like a harmful bacteria or virus.
Now my research on this subject is limited to the encyclopedia I used, dictionaries, and the internet, because I left all my medical textbooks at school. And unfortunately the internet isn't going into much depth on lymposarcoma and lymphosarcomatosis. But from what I've just said, I can conclude that lymphosarcomatosis is just one form of lymphoma. Which means that there is a a tumor in the lymphoid tissue. This tumor is malignant. Which means it’s cancerous and spreading aggressively. There are many different types of lymphoma diseases and cancers, the most popular of which is Hodgkin's disease, you may have heard of it.
The thing with lymphosarcomatosis is that there are MULTIPLE diseased areas of the lymphoid tissue, most likely because the cancer has already spread. So when we speak of lymphosarcomatosis, we're not talking about the beginning stages of the cancer...it’s already worked its magic and spread to multiple areas.
Obviously you can see how if your lymphoid tissue is diseased, it doesn’t function properly, and thus your body cannot protect itself from invading pathogens because you are not forming and using white blood cells properly, and so- your body is weak and can't fight off sicknesses. So the sickness makes you sicker.
Like I said, Hodgkin’s disease is just one type of lymphoma. There are about 16 different types, classified as aggressive or not. The non-aggressive ones actually allow a person to live a long life and not necessarily need treatment. Whereas the aggressive ones cause rapid deterioration and death. What’s odd is the aggressive forms respond better to treatment and have a chance at a cure. Whereas the non-aggressive ones do not respond to treatment and will be a chronic life-long problem.
Lymphomas make up 5.3% of all cancers in the United States.
From 1999-2005 there was a 5-year survival rate of 69.9%.
The median age for death of lymphoma is about 75.
The median age for diagnosis of lymphoma is about 65.
Anyway, its vacation, and I’m tired of learning.
If you read this whole thing, I congratulate you. Anytime you feel an urge to learn, research something stupid, talk medicine and health, then you know you can come talk to me =) Clearly I’m always down for this sort of stuff.
I hope that none of you have lymphosarcomatosis and that my research on it has enlightened you. Unfortunately it has most likely confused you, or reinforced the fact that you don't want to get old becuase cancer sucks.
If anybody has a question about lymposarcomatosis or lymphoma, refer them to me. I am now an expert.
I'm a nerd.
Page 76: This is a Research Project. Find an encyclopedia, open to a random page, close your eyes and point, write down the subject you have chosen, research it and become an expert.
So for any of you who are interested in learning a little fun fact:
Lymphosarcomatosis (Obvious it’s not an easy one. 2 inches up the page was Lymph Nodes, but no, words I can hardly pronounce are way more fun to research).
Lymphosarcomatosis --> a condition characterized by the presence of multiple lesions of lymposarcoma.
Let’s break it down:
Lymph: the interstitial fluid in between cells of human body
Sarcoma: cancer of connective tissue
Suffix “osis”: normally means a disease or chronic condition.
So I’m concluding that lymphosarcomatosis is a disease in which one has cancer in the interstitial fluid of the cells in their connective tissue. But since I must become an EXPERT, I’ll back track and try to find more info….
Lymposarcoma is a diseased (malignant) lymphoid tissue. Lymphoid tissues are located all around the body; in bone marrow, surrounding arteries, between membranes lining the large and small intestines and respiratory system. Basically these tissues hold cells in them that support a lot of different functions; mainly white blood cells that support the immune response system. There are macrophages and lymphocytes that eliminate dangerous invaders and kick start the body’s response system to protect against invaders. When I say invader I mean any sort of harmful cell or pathogen that has entered the body, like a harmful bacteria or virus.
Now my research on this subject is limited to the encyclopedia I used, dictionaries, and the internet, because I left all my medical textbooks at school. And unfortunately the internet isn't going into much depth on lymposarcoma and lymphosarcomatosis. But from what I've just said, I can conclude that lymphosarcomatosis is just one form of lymphoma. Which means that there is a a tumor in the lymphoid tissue. This tumor is malignant. Which means it’s cancerous and spreading aggressively. There are many different types of lymphoma diseases and cancers, the most popular of which is Hodgkin's disease, you may have heard of it.
The thing with lymphosarcomatosis is that there are MULTIPLE diseased areas of the lymphoid tissue, most likely because the cancer has already spread. So when we speak of lymphosarcomatosis, we're not talking about the beginning stages of the cancer...it’s already worked its magic and spread to multiple areas.
Obviously you can see how if your lymphoid tissue is diseased, it doesn’t function properly, and thus your body cannot protect itself from invading pathogens because you are not forming and using white blood cells properly, and so- your body is weak and can't fight off sicknesses. So the sickness makes you sicker.
Like I said, Hodgkin’s disease is just one type of lymphoma. There are about 16 different types, classified as aggressive or not. The non-aggressive ones actually allow a person to live a long life and not necessarily need treatment. Whereas the aggressive ones cause rapid deterioration and death. What’s odd is the aggressive forms respond better to treatment and have a chance at a cure. Whereas the non-aggressive ones do not respond to treatment and will be a chronic life-long problem.
Lymphomas make up 5.3% of all cancers in the United States.
From 1999-2005 there was a 5-year survival rate of 69.9%.
The median age for death of lymphoma is about 75.
The median age for diagnosis of lymphoma is about 65.
Anyway, its vacation, and I’m tired of learning.
If you read this whole thing, I congratulate you. Anytime you feel an urge to learn, research something stupid, talk medicine and health, then you know you can come talk to me =) Clearly I’m always down for this sort of stuff.
I hope that none of you have lymphosarcomatosis and that my research on it has enlightened you. Unfortunately it has most likely confused you, or reinforced the fact that you don't want to get old becuase cancer sucks.
If anybody has a question about lymposarcomatosis or lymphoma, refer them to me. I am now an expert.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
This is a Gift
I got This is NOT a Book from a friend as a very sweet Christmas gift. It was very thoughtful. So I am most certainly going to continue the adventure now and finish the book. Yay!!
It feels funny because it's all brand new and all my previous precious work that I put into the old one is obviously missing. But I think I'll just start where I left off and create This is NOT a Book Jr. Who knows, maybe it will be better than the last. First is the worst, second is the best!
(I always say that when something is second. But of course, if something is first, I just ignore that whole saying because obviously the first is the best. But this way here I can always declare that second is the best when I want it to be [: )
Anyway, I am home for the next 2 weeks and 2 days for Christmas break! Maybe I can do some silly pages with my younger brother. He might enjoy it. And then I go back to school 2 weeks early to begin the track season. So I'm there even though classes haven't started, and all I do practice and compete for 2 weeks. So I may need a break from that. Basically, I'm not in school and I don't work, so I'm just running and doing family time for the next month ... aka: Get ready for a lot of blogging!
It feels funny because it's all brand new and all my previous precious work that I put into the old one is obviously missing. But I think I'll just start where I left off and create This is NOT a Book Jr. Who knows, maybe it will be better than the last. First is the worst, second is the best!
(I always say that when something is second. But of course, if something is first, I just ignore that whole saying because obviously the first is the best. But this way here I can always declare that second is the best when I want it to be [: )
Anyway, I am home for the next 2 weeks and 2 days for Christmas break! Maybe I can do some silly pages with my younger brother. He might enjoy it. And then I go back to school 2 weeks early to begin the track season. So I'm there even though classes haven't started, and all I do practice and compete for 2 weeks. So I may need a break from that. Basically, I'm not in school and I don't work, so I'm just running and doing family time for the next month ... aka: Get ready for a lot of blogging!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
100 views!
Welp, the book is still gone. But I want to blog! Its just not fair ... I'll have to figure this out somehow. In the meantime, Im going to blog anyway, minus the Not a Book!
I've always liked to write. I write in a journal all the time. And I can bang out an A+ essay on any topic, any day ... any time. But when I thought about blogging, it just didn't feel right. Because why would I publically write about the private daily things that go on in my life? I've always felt like if there is something that I have to say and want to share, then I'll write to a newspaper, or in a class. And if its something I don't want to share, I'll write it for myself in my journal.
But when I got This Is NOT a Book, it was the first time that I got to do some creative writing that was completely just for fun. It didn't have a purpose, it wasn't for a grade or to necessarialy learn from it. And it didn't get me all wrapped up in my ever growing emotions ... and yes, that happens EVERY time I journal. It was just ... just out of pure interest. I like to write. I like to talk to people. I like to figure things out and make meaning out of things. I like to share what I know.
So moral of the story: I like to blog! But now I don't have This is NOT a Book to blog about. I could blog about my life: school, classes, finals, boys....boys boys boys and more boys, track, family, the weather, funny stories about my roommates, the meaning of life. But it wouldn't be the same. I wouldn't be motivated to blog about these thigns, because it wouldn't satisfy me, it wouldn't challenge me. I can already write about these things in my journal, or I can talk on the phone about them to my best friend. But without the blog, there wasn't much meaning to This is NOT a Book - because without the blog, I couldn't share my adventure to anyone.
I mean, it would be kinda silly if I called my mom and said "Hey Mom, today I put This is NOT a book in between my legs and saw how far i could run with it there before it fell out. Then had my roommmates do it to see who could go the farthest! Lisa won!"
She'd be like ...... "wtf linds. I don't give a flying hoot"
Just kidding she wouldn't say that. It's be worse. She would probably ignore me.
So you see, the blog had a focus. I like to blog because it helped me care about something that didn't matter. For many 20 year old college kids, this may seem odd because 20 year olds shouldn't have a care in the world. But I have this issue where I care about EVERYTHING in the world. And I have more empathy than one should ever have. So basically, I've really enjoyed NOT a Book and blogging because I could focus on one thing that really didn't matter! And it's kind of taught me how do just do things for fun, or because Im told to, and not because it will change the world. And it basically helped distract me from my life. which everyone needs from time to time I think. =)
So until I get it back, in some way or another... I'm going to keep blogging and perhaps I'll find a way to blog about things that I can't call and tell my mom and that I wont start crying over in my journal :)
PS. Profile Views reached 100 the other day! That excites me so much! I don't know if it tracks how many people look at the blog page, or just my profile page. And I don't know if it tracks how many times, or how many differnt computers reach either. But either way, somehow I've reached 100 views on a blog thats NOT a Blog ... I'm impressed :P
I've always liked to write. I write in a journal all the time. And I can bang out an A+ essay on any topic, any day ... any time. But when I thought about blogging, it just didn't feel right. Because why would I publically write about the private daily things that go on in my life? I've always felt like if there is something that I have to say and want to share, then I'll write to a newspaper, or in a class. And if its something I don't want to share, I'll write it for myself in my journal.
But when I got This Is NOT a Book, it was the first time that I got to do some creative writing that was completely just for fun. It didn't have a purpose, it wasn't for a grade or to necessarialy learn from it. And it didn't get me all wrapped up in my ever growing emotions ... and yes, that happens EVERY time I journal. It was just ... just out of pure interest. I like to write. I like to talk to people. I like to figure things out and make meaning out of things. I like to share what I know.
So moral of the story: I like to blog! But now I don't have This is NOT a Book to blog about. I could blog about my life: school, classes, finals, boys....boys boys boys and more boys, track, family, the weather, funny stories about my roommates, the meaning of life. But it wouldn't be the same. I wouldn't be motivated to blog about these thigns, because it wouldn't satisfy me, it wouldn't challenge me. I can already write about these things in my journal, or I can talk on the phone about them to my best friend. But without the blog, there wasn't much meaning to This is NOT a Book - because without the blog, I couldn't share my adventure to anyone.
I mean, it would be kinda silly if I called my mom and said "Hey Mom, today I put This is NOT a book in between my legs and saw how far i could run with it there before it fell out. Then had my roommmates do it to see who could go the farthest! Lisa won!"
She'd be like ...... "wtf linds. I don't give a flying hoot"
Just kidding she wouldn't say that. It's be worse. She would probably ignore me.
So you see, the blog had a focus. I like to blog because it helped me care about something that didn't matter. For many 20 year old college kids, this may seem odd because 20 year olds shouldn't have a care in the world. But I have this issue where I care about EVERYTHING in the world. And I have more empathy than one should ever have. So basically, I've really enjoyed NOT a Book and blogging because I could focus on one thing that really didn't matter! And it's kind of taught me how do just do things for fun, or because Im told to, and not because it will change the world. And it basically helped distract me from my life. which everyone needs from time to time I think. =)
So until I get it back, in some way or another... I'm going to keep blogging and perhaps I'll find a way to blog about things that I can't call and tell my mom and that I wont start crying over in my journal :)
PS. Profile Views reached 100 the other day! That excites me so much! I don't know if it tracks how many people look at the blog page, or just my profile page. And I don't know if it tracks how many times, or how many differnt computers reach either. But either way, somehow I've reached 100 views on a blog thats NOT a Blog ... I'm impressed :P
Thursday, December 10, 2009
This is a mystery. What should I do?
so page #whatever: This is an Experiment. Leave This is NOT a Book in a public place overnight, see what happens.
... I'll tell you what happens. It mysteriously disappears/gets thrown out by the committed and dedicated custodians that keep our campus squeaky clean day in and day out.
This is NOT a Book is gone. My sister told me that its just like the iPod and I should persevere and get it back! So I tried. But I have confirmation, it was thrown out. I guess karma comes back around.
I can't say that this is necessarialy a bad thing though. I mean, it was an "Experiment." If the book said "don't put it in a place where nothing bad can happen to it" ... then that would be a stupid experiment, because then nothing would happen to it! You see what I mean here?
Then something even more mysterious happened. In the EXACT same location an empty red notebook was found 3 days later. And in black sharpie was written "This is NOT a book."
And its true. Its not a book. Its a spiral notebook. But its basically empty! I flipped through it looking for a name or a clue or a hint as to who put it there, why, or if there is a reason behind it. But all thats there is some statistics notes and a few doodles. I have a few guesses as to who put it there, but I don't know if there is a purpose to it. I think its just a thoughtful and fun friend who felt bad that the book was lost and so replaced it. I think its cute. And I wondered if I should have left it there so that maybe the "hunt" would continue... but I just took it. I wanted my replacement NOT a book/notebook :)
So my question is now...do I turn my replacement not-e-book (GET IT?! I just came up with that now! its like NOT-a-Book but its a notebook, so its a NOT-e-book. Im so cleaver hehe).
anyway, continuing....my question is: do I turn my replacement not-e-book into my own sort of adventure; do I get a real replacement and buy another NOT-a-book and pick up where I left off; or do I be done? Maybe if its gone, then its done? Maybe it was an experiment to see if I should continue my adventure or not. And since it failed, I shouldn't.
I don't know yet what I want to do. It's finals time, I'm going home for winter break soon, I'm thinking about other things, so I don't know whether I should continue or not. But at the same time, I dont want to be done. I like doing this. Its fun, its my thing, and I like blogging. And I really wanted to finish.
Well, I guess time will tell. I'd like some input though, really. I mean I know nobody REALLY cares. I know you guys just read when you're bored or procrastinating your homework. But I want your honest opinion. Is it worth my $12-20 (I forget how much it was) to go out and buy another one? Hmmm... I'll sleep on it.
... I'll tell you what happens. It mysteriously disappears/gets thrown out by the committed and dedicated custodians that keep our campus squeaky clean day in and day out.
This is NOT a Book is gone. My sister told me that its just like the iPod and I should persevere and get it back! So I tried. But I have confirmation, it was thrown out. I guess karma comes back around.
I can't say that this is necessarialy a bad thing though. I mean, it was an "Experiment." If the book said "don't put it in a place where nothing bad can happen to it" ... then that would be a stupid experiment, because then nothing would happen to it! You see what I mean here?
Then something even more mysterious happened. In the EXACT same location an empty red notebook was found 3 days later. And in black sharpie was written "This is NOT a book."
And its true. Its not a book. Its a spiral notebook. But its basically empty! I flipped through it looking for a name or a clue or a hint as to who put it there, why, or if there is a reason behind it. But all thats there is some statistics notes and a few doodles. I have a few guesses as to who put it there, but I don't know if there is a purpose to it. I think its just a thoughtful and fun friend who felt bad that the book was lost and so replaced it. I think its cute. And I wondered if I should have left it there so that maybe the "hunt" would continue... but I just took it. I wanted my replacement NOT a book/notebook :)
So my question is now...do I turn my replacement not-e-book (GET IT?! I just came up with that now! its like NOT-a-Book but its a notebook, so its a NOT-e-book. Im so cleaver hehe).
anyway, continuing....my question is: do I turn my replacement not-e-book into my own sort of adventure; do I get a real replacement and buy another NOT-a-book and pick up where I left off; or do I be done? Maybe if its gone, then its done? Maybe it was an experiment to see if I should continue my adventure or not. And since it failed, I shouldn't.
I don't know yet what I want to do. It's finals time, I'm going home for winter break soon, I'm thinking about other things, so I don't know whether I should continue or not. But at the same time, I dont want to be done. I like doing this. Its fun, its my thing, and I like blogging. And I really wanted to finish.
Well, I guess time will tell. I'd like some input though, really. I mean I know nobody REALLY cares. I know you guys just read when you're bored or procrastinating your homework. But I want your honest opinion. Is it worth my $12-20 (I forget how much it was) to go out and buy another one? Hmmm... I'll sleep on it.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
this is DOING WORK
So I was feeling guilty that I wasn't actively doing a page every day and I felt like a slacker. So today I sat down and did work. There were a few pages that I've been waiting to do, and today I combined all of them. In addition, the other day my number 1 fan told me that he wanted to be included in my activites. So while finishing off a few pages all at once, I designed them specifically for him to do.
1. I had to leave This is Not a Book in a place over night
2. I had to leave a comment in a public place
3. I had to write a message to a friend
4. I had to leave This is Not a Book somewhere and create a treasure map for a friend to find it.
So I did all of these things at once. I hid the treasure (This is Not a Book) in a funny secret place (to be revealed later), and i wrote a message inside of it for the "hunter" when he finds it. I left a clue for him in a public place, and I created the treasure map with an X marks the spot and left it on the hunters door. Of course since my number 1 fan wanted to be "included" there was no other person I could think of to do this than him. Mulvs, I hope you are reading this right now and I really hope you do it because A) me and my roommate had quite the adventure setting it up for you this afternoon, we put a good amount of effort into it and B) I left This is Not a Book somewhere overnight and I dont want anyone to take it so I need you to get to it before anybody else does!!
:)
ALSO ***** I only have 3 more days of giving stuff away!!! I decided to open this up to everybody: if there is something you want from me, this is your one and only chance to ask for it and have a very very high probablility that I WILL give it to you! Leave me a comment of something you want within the next 3 days - or just straight up ask me "Hey Lindsey, can I have that sandwich that you just bought, Im really hungry." I'll say "Yes", because its coming down to the end and Im just gonna give it all I got.
get it? heheh
1. I had to leave This is Not a Book in a place over night
2. I had to leave a comment in a public place
3. I had to write a message to a friend
4. I had to leave This is Not a Book somewhere and create a treasure map for a friend to find it.
So I did all of these things at once. I hid the treasure (This is Not a Book) in a funny secret place (to be revealed later), and i wrote a message inside of it for the "hunter" when he finds it. I left a clue for him in a public place, and I created the treasure map with an X marks the spot and left it on the hunters door. Of course since my number 1 fan wanted to be "included" there was no other person I could think of to do this than him. Mulvs, I hope you are reading this right now and I really hope you do it because A) me and my roommate had quite the adventure setting it up for you this afternoon, we put a good amount of effort into it and B) I left This is Not a Book somewhere overnight and I dont want anyone to take it so I need you to get to it before anybody else does!!
:)
ALSO ***** I only have 3 more days of giving stuff away!!! I decided to open this up to everybody: if there is something you want from me, this is your one and only chance to ask for it and have a very very high probablility that I WILL give it to you! Leave me a comment of something you want within the next 3 days - or just straight up ask me "Hey Lindsey, can I have that sandwich that you just bought, Im really hungry." I'll say "Yes", because its coming down to the end and Im just gonna give it all I got.
get it? heheh
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Giving things away during the Christmas season is so easy. The last two days in a row I've just donated canned goods to various collection boxes around campus. I swear I didn't pick this on purpose since I knew it'd be easy. It's just luck. And even if it is easy, its still a good thing to give.
My last post was very long. Sometimes I really enjoy writing becuase I literally just enjoy hearing what I have to say. Even though I know other people might not care to continue reading, I just have fun doing it! But I'll keep this one short and sweet ;)
Right now the semester is wrapping up, finals are coming, and there is a lot of work to do in the next two weeks.
Although I often use the not-a-book and blogging as a distraction, I honestly can't afford to be distracted much right now. Thats why I haven't been posting too frequently.
(I was told by my number 1 fan that if Im not going to post as frequently then I should give readers a heads up, so they know that I haven't forgotten about them. So that's what I'm doing now)
I haven't forgotten about you. I haven't forgotten about my book-mission-journey-challenge-blogging-adventure ... whatever it is. Im just kinda busy :( I've still been doing all the pages, I'm up to about 80 now. But I don't always write about them because I don't always feel like people care. For instance, on page 64 I dropped a string on a page and traced it multiple times in a row. On page 69 I filled out a form applying for absolutely nothing and I had to have a friend witness it and bless it for me.... these are things that I just don't think you care about. And Im sure it was pointless and brutal enough for you to read it just now. So I will spare you the hassle of reading posts about the many many other pointless things I do.
But none the less, I appreciate that you are keeping tabs on me (thats u mulvs) and I'll try to write about as many funny, ridiculous, life altering and eye-opening experiences as I can =)
My last post was very long. Sometimes I really enjoy writing becuase I literally just enjoy hearing what I have to say. Even though I know other people might not care to continue reading, I just have fun doing it! But I'll keep this one short and sweet ;)
Right now the semester is wrapping up, finals are coming, and there is a lot of work to do in the next two weeks.
Although I often use the not-a-book and blogging as a distraction, I honestly can't afford to be distracted much right now. Thats why I haven't been posting too frequently.
(I was told by my number 1 fan that if Im not going to post as frequently then I should give readers a heads up, so they know that I haven't forgotten about them. So that's what I'm doing now)
I haven't forgotten about you. I haven't forgotten about my book-mission-journey-challenge-blogging-adventure ... whatever it is. Im just kinda busy :( I've still been doing all the pages, I'm up to about 80 now. But I don't always write about them because I don't always feel like people care. For instance, on page 64 I dropped a string on a page and traced it multiple times in a row. On page 69 I filled out a form applying for absolutely nothing and I had to have a friend witness it and bless it for me.... these are things that I just don't think you care about. And Im sure it was pointless and brutal enough for you to read it just now. So I will spare you the hassle of reading posts about the many many other pointless things I do.
But none the less, I appreciate that you are keeping tabs on me (thats u mulvs) and I'll try to write about as many funny, ridiculous, life altering and eye-opening experiences as I can =)
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
this is a naive girl's thoughts on determination and confidence ...
My iPod was returned. The world may now restore order.
While I was talking to the officer who returned it to me, he said to me "I honestly didn't think we'd get this back. People steal iPods all the time. They are so hard to trace down."
And I said to him, "Yeah well I was determined."
and he replied, "yeah ... I could tell."
And I was determined. And it worked. I got it.
One time somebody told me that I always get what I want. At the time, it was supposed to be a negative comment. But for some reason, I really wasn't offended. Because I know in my heart that even if this is true, even if I do get what I want, it's because I work hard for it. And I don't see how that can be wrong of me.
I deserved to have my own iPod back. So I didn't give up. I was determined to have what is rightfully mine, and I got it. And in other situations in life, if there is something that I think I deserve, because it is rightful to me, then I will do everything in my power to get it. Why would I ever give up on something that I want?
I think that the negative perception of getting what you want comes from people who get things without working hard for them, for people who don't deserve them.
For example, if I just asked my Dad for money so I could go shopping for clothes, and I got it... that could definitely be seen as a negative way of "getting what you want." Because what I wanted was just handed to me without doing anything! (ps. he would never!)
But its different to get what you want because you work for it. If you do all the right steps in order to get what you desire, then I don't think it can be seen as a negative thing. Its called DRIVE. Determination. I want it, so I do what needs to be done in order for me to get it.
I know you might be thinking, "geesh its just an iPod ... what is this girl talking about??"
... But I'm really not talking about the iPod here.
Im talking about doing what you want with your life. Reaching your goals.
Im talking about putting in the effort for something that you want. TAKING CONTROL YOUR LIFE. The way I was so determined to get my iPod back just got me thinking about going after the things that you want, and not giving up. Standing up for yourself and your wants and your needs.
I will not sit back and let other people have control over MY life. I am the only one that can control my life. I determine what I want to do with it, how I want to feel with it, and where I want to go with it.
This is not to say that I won't take other people into consideration. I want to be a loving caring and friendly person. I need friends. I need family. I need people. I just think that there are some situations where you have to put yourself first. When it comes down to standing up for your rights, your physiological needs as a human being, your emotional needs to sustain life, you need to put yourself first. Over anybody else.
Its not right to always get what you want.
But if you have good morals behind the reasons why you want something, and you do all the right steps to get it YOURSELF, then you deserve it. And if you put forth the effort, then you should get it.
So yeah, if I want my iPod back, I will get my iPod.
If I want to feel happy, I will do what it takes to feel happy.
If I want to be a successful dietitian in the future, I will do what it takes, and I will be a successful dietitian.
Because these are things in life that I will work for. These are things that I want SO badly that I will do whatever it takes. And I will make a point of it, that I want it. And when I get it, I will gloat about it because I am proud that I used my determination to get what I want out of life. And so from the outside, people may think "she always gets what she wants." And I wont disagree... I get a lot of good things. But its through hard work, determination, drive, and perseverance. And I don't care what other people see it as, because I know what I went through to get there.
One time I read a chick lit book about philosophy, that was also partially femenistic, and it had a really great quote that really stuck in my mind. (I'll look it up tomorrow and find it exactly...) It said something along the lines of "A girl is not defined by how her actions are judged. Only she can define herself, through the hours of pain that only she herself knows she goes through."
So basically, stand up for yourself and do what you need to do in order to get what you want out of life. Don't let anybody get in your way, or change your path, or have control in your actions. And don't let the fear of being judged stop you. Because you are the only one who can define yourself. Only you know what you go through and what you deserve.
Anybody follow? Or do I sound like a hot headead selfish feminist? Oh well, I don't care if you judge me :P
Anyway, page 94 (I totally skipped ahead): THIS IS A DARE: Write a list of things you would like to try in your lifetime.
- living in a foreign country (even if just for a few weeks)
- skydiving and/or base jumping
- starting my own business
- being a teacher or a coach
- running a marathon
- do a triathlon
That's just my list for now, hopefully I'll add. Anyway, I really do want to try these things at some point. So I will. There's not much stopping me, so at this point, I have no reason not to do what I want. Therefore, I will.
While I was talking to the officer who returned it to me, he said to me "I honestly didn't think we'd get this back. People steal iPods all the time. They are so hard to trace down."
And I said to him, "Yeah well I was determined."
and he replied, "yeah ... I could tell."
And I was determined. And it worked. I got it.
One time somebody told me that I always get what I want. At the time, it was supposed to be a negative comment. But for some reason, I really wasn't offended. Because I know in my heart that even if this is true, even if I do get what I want, it's because I work hard for it. And I don't see how that can be wrong of me.
I deserved to have my own iPod back. So I didn't give up. I was determined to have what is rightfully mine, and I got it. And in other situations in life, if there is something that I think I deserve, because it is rightful to me, then I will do everything in my power to get it. Why would I ever give up on something that I want?
I think that the negative perception of getting what you want comes from people who get things without working hard for them, for people who don't deserve them.
For example, if I just asked my Dad for money so I could go shopping for clothes, and I got it... that could definitely be seen as a negative way of "getting what you want." Because what I wanted was just handed to me without doing anything! (ps. he would never!)
But its different to get what you want because you work for it. If you do all the right steps in order to get what you desire, then I don't think it can be seen as a negative thing. Its called DRIVE. Determination. I want it, so I do what needs to be done in order for me to get it.
I know you might be thinking, "geesh its just an iPod ... what is this girl talking about??"
... But I'm really not talking about the iPod here.
Im talking about doing what you want with your life. Reaching your goals.
Im talking about putting in the effort for something that you want. TAKING CONTROL YOUR LIFE. The way I was so determined to get my iPod back just got me thinking about going after the things that you want, and not giving up. Standing up for yourself and your wants and your needs.
I will not sit back and let other people have control over MY life. I am the only one that can control my life. I determine what I want to do with it, how I want to feel with it, and where I want to go with it.
This is not to say that I won't take other people into consideration. I want to be a loving caring and friendly person. I need friends. I need family. I need people. I just think that there are some situations where you have to put yourself first. When it comes down to standing up for your rights, your physiological needs as a human being, your emotional needs to sustain life, you need to put yourself first. Over anybody else.
Its not right to always get what you want.
But if you have good morals behind the reasons why you want something, and you do all the right steps to get it YOURSELF, then you deserve it. And if you put forth the effort, then you should get it.
So yeah, if I want my iPod back, I will get my iPod.
If I want to feel happy, I will do what it takes to feel happy.
If I want to be a successful dietitian in the future, I will do what it takes, and I will be a successful dietitian.
Because these are things in life that I will work for. These are things that I want SO badly that I will do whatever it takes. And I will make a point of it, that I want it. And when I get it, I will gloat about it because I am proud that I used my determination to get what I want out of life. And so from the outside, people may think "she always gets what she wants." And I wont disagree... I get a lot of good things. But its through hard work, determination, drive, and perseverance. And I don't care what other people see it as, because I know what I went through to get there.
One time I read a chick lit book about philosophy, that was also partially femenistic, and it had a really great quote that really stuck in my mind. (I'll look it up tomorrow and find it exactly...) It said something along the lines of "A girl is not defined by how her actions are judged. Only she can define herself, through the hours of pain that only she herself knows she goes through."
So basically, stand up for yourself and do what you need to do in order to get what you want out of life. Don't let anybody get in your way, or change your path, or have control in your actions. And don't let the fear of being judged stop you. Because you are the only one who can define yourself. Only you know what you go through and what you deserve.
Anybody follow? Or do I sound like a hot headead selfish feminist? Oh well, I don't care if you judge me :P
Anyway, page 94 (I totally skipped ahead): THIS IS A DARE: Write a list of things you would like to try in your lifetime.
- living in a foreign country (even if just for a few weeks)
- skydiving and/or base jumping
- starting my own business
- being a teacher or a coach
- running a marathon
- do a triathlon
That's just my list for now, hopefully I'll add. Anyway, I really do want to try these things at some point. So I will. There's not much stopping me, so at this point, I have no reason not to do what I want. Therefore, I will.
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